And with fingers crossed in hope and prayer
It has been sent away to hospital,
or perhaps Frankenstein’s laboratory for devices with names.
And the tablet crashed …too old to save…
And thus my life support vanishes..
Books and stories trapped in a hull of hope….
Incomplete manuscripts, and bad poems,
Pictures of ink and children…
And I realized how very attached I am to it all…..
And feeling quite shamed
that I did not learn the proper way to salvations in the digital age,
I find myself surrounded by benefactors and crows…
All speaking to me of belonging.
All is forgiven,
the real question is, not, “are you forgiven?”
But can you forgive yourself,
Years ago, there were no cell phones or I-pads (etc.), and no such thing as access to the ‘worldwide web.’ But now there is a feeling of loss…..when a question has to remain unanswered because the internet is down, or the battery went dead on the phone, or the computer comes down with a virus. I have had the hard drive crash before too, and I lost all of my photos..I thought they were gone forever…until my husband managed to resurrect the drive long enough to retrieve most of them. Now he has a backup connected to my computer, but I just got a message that it is 90 percent full. AND I don’t know how to fix that problem either. How did life get so complicated??